a year older? please NO!

waaaa lama gler tak update blog. Sorry, life has been very very hectic.im not manage to jenguk my blog pun or bloghopping from one blog to another apatah lagi to leave a comment. will have a marathon session once im free.hee hee. First of all,

i would like to wish my dearest sister shida,

happy 26th birthday!

dah besar rupe nye budak kecik ni eh..

thanks for always being there and may u achieve what u aimed for..

luv u mucho xoxo

its just a few days before im turing 27 old. ya, im old enuff. well, being twenty 7even is scare me enough.

day by day u feel less attractive, fatter, flabby tummy, double chin, the frackle.. tak menarik langsung! oh tidak! kawin pun tak lg opps bf pun takde lagi but all those thingy dah wujud, malu nyer!

is it only me that feel that way? yes? no?

i did berazam everysingle day nak berjoging / puasa tapi gler hampeh! Siap berangan nak beli track and sport shoe baru..but still, selera mkn melampau tak igt. klu macamni tak sempat nk kempis tapi dah jadi pelampung. how? tensi! why cant we reduce the number year by year? hahahaha mustahil lah kan. Mane ade org makin lama makin muda.hahaha seriusly i feel less confident by myself, baru tau why people afraid of being older.huh now i can imagine how my appearance when im 30s, ntah2 jadi mcm erra fazira gemuk yg kuat mkn tu. crite ape, tak igt!

And being 27 and single made me feels alone. Nobody at home except my parents and youngest brother. Most of frens are married and got their own commitment seperti sibuk persiapan nak tunang / kawin/ bf. And my life is about family and work and work again. Umph. Takle la nak salahkan org lain sbb ppl change and moving on. Diri sendiri je yang static macam ni sape suruh kan? Padanla muka. Even i think my parents didnt realize that their daughter dah grw up, dah tua. Abah once mad at me bcause im arrived home late, *ok tipu, bukan sekali je* thinking of i pergi merayau ntah mane, sebenarnye i kept myself bz with work yg pilling up tak hengat.*owh, itu adalah mengcover alasan sebenar yang tiada life. :(

no. im not desperate to get married.

klong said

'ala, 27 is not old enough. enjoy yourself. takyah risau-risau. jodoh tu ttb and kejap je. ko ade rase desperate ke?'

'desperate takde lg la.'

'haa jgn rasa desperate. relax. but at this age a big different is a boyfren.ya, a boyfren. either u has a bf or not.kawin tu tak rasa sgt'. betul tak?'

it hits me and..'ya. its really true''

owh, apart from that, im in midst of finding a way of saving for future! Ewaahh. And I want to take this thingy seriously. im really really afraid if one day im regret of what im doing now, anything that relating to my saving. Baik beringat sekarang.

okla, i better stop now. by peeps.